

This mountain trail is like his marriage:
dry,
dusty, hard, hobnailed
with
stones to trip on, which he
promptly does. Sandwiched between
buddies
who chat about Italian
suits
and Zuni pots, he breathes
as if he's swallowed a sharp rock.
The
trees are pine, fir, cedar, mixed
with
a few oaks—somehow still green.
How deep their roots must grow!
How
hardy they must be, sustained
by
dew, distilling life from sun
that sears him, air too thin to fill
His
heart has shriveled.
Lack
of tenderness has burned it
brown as the big redwood his friends
point
out, parasitized by mistletoe
that
prompts no kisses, hung
in tatters as dead as the tree.
Why
don't we rest? he asks himself,
hating
his friends' shifting buttocks
and thick, relentless thighs. He aches
to
call out, Guys, I need a break,
but
can't admit so much weakness.
Above them soars Suicide Peak
from
which an Indian princess,
lovelessly
betrothed (in legend)
leaped. The peak—bare, pinkish rock
polished
by rain, wind, snow—
looks
like a clitoris. The trail keeps
climbing, but his pain has plateaued:
just
barely endurable,
he
thinks, and stumbles on.